A Walk to Remember

Last night I was home alone just going through some channels, and I ran into A Walk to Remember. I started watching it because I remember watching it way back in high school when I was trying to catch a date with this one girl. Well, that obviously didn’t work out at the time. Actually, it was a train wreck, but anyways, I was watching this movie, and I’ve realized that this movie had a lot more to offer than just a love story. It was almost like those revelations in life where you realize, “Wow! Why didn’t I see that before?” 

What I realized through this movie was that you will go through many trials in life, and sometimes they are not always good. Sometimes you need someone to guide you back to where you want to be in the future. Like is it possible to say that Nadine fell into my life at the right moment four years ago? I started really pondering this and it really hit me when I started to realize what has happened the last four years since I met her.

Nadine moved here in May of 2010. She was forced to leave New York for reasons that are private. I was in a band at the time and performed around Georgia, trying to scrape by with a few bucks here and there each week. I was still living with my parents, and I had no ambitions on trying to get a degree at the time because I just honestly did not know what I wanted to do with my life. I was jumping from one girl to the next for about two years before I met Nadine because my ex had really jabbed a dagger through my heart. It was tough for a long time.

I remember sitting in the basement of my drummer’s mom’s house, and we were trying to come up with some beats. We went upstairs and played some video games for awhile after we failed to really accomplish anything. Then, my guitarist called us up and told us we should go down to this pizzeria and have a bite to eat with him, maybe play a mini acoustic set while we were in the area. At first, I was a bit put off by the suggestion, but I knew I really needed to get out. My drummer finally convinced me and we hit the road to the other side of town. When we got to the pizzeria, I discovered one of our fans was there with her cousin. Her cousin being Nadine. I really was into her even though we hardly talked at first, but we really hit it off once we moved passed the umms and buts. I learned a lot about what her life was like before she moved down here, and I talked about mine as well. The thing that really made me happy was we both had the same aspirations and goals in life.

Over the years, we have really stuck together through everything, whether it be financial troubles or family problems. There hasn’t been one moment where we have fallen into the trap of our friends trying to pull us apart, or we’re too stressed out about affording to live the lifestyle we have. Yes, we are not the perfect couple, but this is the closest feeling to perfect I’ve had in a long time. I now have pulled all of my own weight towards my own home, my own car, a job, and my writing. I have been keeping it together the best I can for the last four years because Nadine fell into my life at the right time. I no longer play in a band, I’m not obsessed with fame or fortune anymore. It’s like life has become more harmonious.

I think we all have people in our lives whether they are boyfriends/girlfriends, friends, or long lost family members. There is always a reason someone comes into your life. It could be to bring your family closer together, or to realize the people that are using you and making you weaker. It doesn’t matter if it’s a dog, or a fish, there is a reason you brought that person closer to you, or animal. Is it because we all have that kind of energy that brings us closer together, is there a mighty spirit that uses us like characters in a book, or do we simply just run into each other out of randomness? Either way, I think we all have at least one reason to keep someone in our lives to make us the person we are today. If so, always cherish that and thank them for being there for you today.

Reviews for Authors

I had a post a week or two ago about reviewing author’s novels/stories. If you are interested in receiving a review from me, you can contact me here, or through my email. The criteria I base my reviews on are: character development, plot development, and mechanics. I would be highly interested in helping you. I base my reviews on a 5 star scale.

5 Stars- Amazing, engrossing, page turner

4 Stars- Well written, nice plot

3 Stars- A balance between nice and needs work.

2 Stars- Needs work. Couldn’t finish it.

1 Star- Bored to death, needs editing, and terrible character development. 

That’s my grade scale, and I will also try to balance my likes and dislikes about a novel. Also I mostly review, horror/science fiction/literature fiction/occasionally romance. I am open for more genres, but those are my favorite ones to review. If you have any questions, you may contact me at anytime. It may take a few for me to respond, but I will get to you eventually, and if I don’t. Send me another request after 30 days.

I will post my reviews on the kindle website or which ever website you would like my reviews on. I will have more descriptive reviews on here though.

Check out Justina Luther’s Blog!

I finally have some time to sit down and do a little bit of blogging before I start my usual routine for the day. I sat down and read a few blogs today. There is one blogger that I really enjoy reading because she really knows how to put you at this point like what’s going on to THAT ESCALATED QUICKLY! But it’s they good kind of escalation, where you are enjoying what the story starts out as to a grabbing plot that makes you wonder, “Why? What happened? I want to know where this story is going next?!” I really enjoyed her writing, and I would hope she does pursue publishing some of her work because I know I would go on amazon and purchase it. Anyways, her page is:

http://justinaluther.wordpress.com/

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If you get a chance to read some blogs today, definitely swing by hers. She has interviews with her characters, and she allows readers to ask any questions you may have. These show up on the following weeks post of that story. She is definitely an awesome read and I highly recommend following her! 🙂

 

 

 

The Interesting Things I’ve Accumulated

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This is my display of some of my graphic novels from The Walking Dead. I also have an abundance of comic books on the top shelf in my office but they weren’t as appealing as this bad boy!

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Here’s my Lord of the Rings signatures. The top one is a screenplay signed by the cast, and the bottom one is the two actors I didn’t get signatures from in the top one. I got these 3 pictures/ screenplays at Dragon Con four or five years ago.

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I bought this piece because Charles Adlard (The artist for some of Kirkman’s Walking Dead Comics) made this. I still haven’t framed it, but it’s a fantastic piece for my Walking Dead collection!

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This is an Assassin’s Creed poster for Black Flag. I like this because it was made by Todd McFarlane (Another artist that drew for Robert Kirkman) 

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And my most prized piece is the Stormtrooper helmet. I won this baby from my photographer when I donated to her friend’s charity. I love this because I mean, it’s Star Wars, nothing is more beautiful than this sitting on top of the shelf in your office while you find those inspiring words.

As you can see, I’m a bit of a nerd, but I love collecting things. It’s growing to be an almost dangerous hobby! Hope you guys enjoyed!

Working Yourself to Death

I  haven’t had too much time these last few days to get on here, so I’m going to stick a post in this morning. I’ve been overloaded with work, so I’ve been having to spend a lot of time with fruits and vegetables lately as well as trying to dig deep into writing Eversoul. Saturday one of the guys at work had a stroke, so I’m filling his shifts till Friday, which I beg to ask the question, why do people continue to work after 80 years old. I mean, I understand some people will work 20 hours a week just so that they can keep their retirement, or stay busy. This guy was working 40 hours a week lifting case that were between 40-50 pounds. You would think there is a point in your life, where you can enjoy the rest of your days with family and not have to bust your butt till you land in your death bed. I sometimes even wonder why we expect so much from these people when they are too fragile to even walk. This is probably the second reason why i stepped down from my position at my job. I don’t want this job to be the last thing I do before I die. I want to be able to either make a difference in this world, or create something that will inspire and innovate the people around me. I know there are reasons that people do what they do daily, but shouldn’t your health and family be the first priority no matter what?

Is It Expensive, or Are We Poor?

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I was sitting at home today thinking about all the materialistic things that I have in my house right now. Many questions kept popping in my head and nothing seemed to make sense in my own mind. Seriously, why the hell did I buy this crap?! Apparently when I was an assistant manager I didn’t think about where my money was going. I’ve even had some friends tell me not to overspend and be careful with the newly acquired income I was receiving. Like damn, I went bookoo crazy! 

I stepped down from my job as an assistant because I was losing a lot of my personality. I was angry every day, unhappy, and the upper management made me feel like I was a shit stain they needed to clean up. It got to a point where suicide seemed like the only option to escape the place. I was frightened and scared what I might lose when I left my position. I was even more worried what might happen with my relationship with Nadine. I will be the first to say that sometimes it gets really rough financially, and it is very scary. I was never honest with myself though when I was working as an assistant. It was almost like I wanted to play this role as a celebrity when actually I was just rotting in some shit hole environment that was barely getting me by each day. I think the reason I bought a lot of the stuff I have now and ran my credit cards through the roof was because I wanted to try to create this environment at home that could take me away from that place I was in at work. I’m sure people may not understand the reasoning behind some of my actions, but in my head, they do make since.

I know I had a few friends say I was crazy for letting a job like that go but to be honest, working 60 hours a week for someone else and only making a very small percentage of the cake felt like I was being taken advantage of. My pay would decrease after 40 hours, it would decrease again after 50, and then decrease again after 60. I don’t mean a few bucks here and there, I mean half of my hourly pay, if you took it down to the numbers. I don’t think I’m the kind of person that is truly a money person. Yes, I want to have enough money to do what I want to do: write, travel, and enjoy life, but it feels like money has brought everybody around me as well as myself down. 

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We are so consumed by the new technology and new toys that hit the market that we are willing to spend hundreds of thousands of dollars on brand names, when we can simply buy something cheaper that is the exact same product. I know yesterday I went shopping for shirts, I saw all these Marc Anthony shirts for 24.99. I look right next to it. There was a brand called APT, where you got 2 shirts for 18.99. These shirts were the exact same material and design as Marc Anthony. So, why would anyone pay more for less? Well, the name I guess. Why are we so consumed in impressing the next person that enters our home or sees us walking down the street? Have we come to that point in our everyday life that we have to out buy our neighbors just to satisfy our own egos?

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I watched a movie recently called The Joneses, but it had the perfect concept about this. A family moves into a neighborhood full of rich people. This family had a mom, dad, son, and daughter. Your typical American family. Well, they had all the brand name products across the board. We’re talking appliances, decor, perfumes, clothing, video games, and cars. The crazy part was the family was just a way for businesses to sell their products. These people got pulled from their normal jobs and families to take part in this to sell products and pretend to be a family. It was the craziest thing! The neighbors fell for it and bought everything these people didn’t spend a cent on. 

So what does this tell us about where we are going as a nation? I think right now we’re stuck in limbo with the bullshit that’s going on in politics as well as the corporate world that is just trying to grab every cent from our pockets. Where is our money really going when we buy these products though? Are they going to ethical business practices, or another environmental disaster waiting to happen? We are creating our own demise by giving in to the corporate lies that we see on television, hear on the radio, and read in magazines. I know I was a sucker for it for a long time, bought the nice car, the nice flat screen televisions, the surround sound system, and many more things. I don’t know why i felt the need to buy these things, but now, I wonder why I didn’t think it through before I just threw my credit cards and money willingly to these people.

It’s in human nature for us to want, but is it really what we need? Someone told me the other day are prices expensive, or are we just getting poorer? Honestly, who knows what the answer to that is, but I’m willing to bet, we’re getting poorer due to the government and corporations strangling us with their greedy fists. What do we do now to save ourselves?

Followers? (What’s the Point?)

I’ve been going through some blogs this morning, reading about everyone’s day, or running into the wretched posts about how many followers someone has, or how to make your blog look better. It’s scary to think that some of the blogs I follow on here are starting to turn in that direction after I really enjoyed reading their days and their writing.So I’m dedicating this short post to the people so obsessed about followers.

Why are we so obsessed about pulling in people to read our material? Is it because we want to be a famous writer? Maybe be a blogger like Perez Hilton one day? Are we so intrigued by getting that one little like or that one comment to be able to change our day to something great?

I don’t know the answers. I hardly even know why I get excited to see a new follower everyday. I don’t know if it’s because we are brought up to try to be something of substance in our parents’ eyes, or if we just want to have those 1 million followers that spend their hard earned cash on our next book? Our society has become so caught up in all of these different -isms now, I don’t even know which one to really write about because they are all basically the same thing. People obsessed with having more power through authority, money, or popularity. Why is the human race so obsessed with power?

We naturally want to be free to roam and do whatever the hell we want. We don’t want to be trapped inside of a work place, doing the same damn thing everyday like a bunch of robots. We want to travel, explore, and learn about the world and universe. What are we learning in a place that uses corporate slavery to shackle us to their brand? Absolutely Nothing! We are growing into a society, where we feel we need to be led and told what to do to be able to be safe and secure. I mean, at twenty-one I was told to start saving for retirement! Which of course, I have.

Why do we give into the things that we are told to do? 

Is it because at the time we’re too young to understand what it’s like to be at the age of fifty and still working? Or is it because we look at other people who are suffering and say, “I don’t want that at all.” I really don’t know what the reason is that we do the things we do. I know security is a big reason, but I’m rambling onto a different subject that I really don’t want to move into. Anyways, followers, why do we want them/ need them?

What are they doing for you? Are they paying your bills? Are they giving you a shoulder to cry on? For one, these are all a no. Maybe for rare cases it’s a yes, but this is an absolute no for most of us.

You should enjoy writing, and not worry so much about who is following you. I know I enjoy new things to read about on everyone’s page especially when I have hardly any followers, but I like it that way sometimes because I can be more connected to those people. Let’s all admit, when you have more than 500 followers, how many of those blogs are you actually going to be able to get around to later on to say “Hello I enjoyed your post.”? It’s tough to get back to all of them! All I’m saying is please write for you cause I really do enjoy reading about successes, poetry, novels, short stories, and in general life! The reviews about books and movies are fun to read too. Please find connections that can help you get to your goals as well. Also try not to forget why you write, it shouldn’t be for fame or fortune. It should be for you.

Darn Alarm Clock!

I woke up this morning to my dog actually licking its butt next to my head. I know that sounds weird, but I’m only being honest to what happened to me. Anyways, I got up after pushing her aside and washing my face in the bathroom. I spent the last hour and a half checking emails from people who followed my page and liked my posts. I didn’t get any comments last night, which isn’t a surprise, I’m still a newbie to this and learning as I go. 

I decided to sit down with my phone and scroll through a few pages that liked my posts, or followed me. I’ve realized we have a very diverse world out there. It’s weird to think that some of the things I would normally disagree with have actually brought to light a different perspective on the subject. I read articles about religion, innovation, and just simple blogs of people nervous about revealing their talents in writing. 

I will say, everyone needs to try to have an open mind when opening up a post on anyone’s page. You shouldn’t attack an idea until you read through the post and understand why that person thinks that way. I saw a few posts that made me gawk but after reading through the thoughts and resources, I’ve realized wow! He/She has a point here. Why didn’t I ever think of that? 

I had the pleasure of talking to kateturville on her blog, and I will say it’s nice to see someone else having the same feelings you have, or had starting out with writing. I think all of us have been there, where we were so worried about grammar, punctuation, and character development that our writing seemed like it could never find it’s way to being published. I know my first run of Horizon, I got ripped for a lot of things even after it was edited. I will say for me though, I worry more about the content that is in a person’s writing. If you can grab me with your content and keep my interest, a lot of the errors are going to be looked over. Now, if your writing looks terrible and it’s just a bunch of mumbo jumbo chicken scratch that has nothing of any value to it, and the grammar is just terrible, where you can’t understand one sentence, I’ll be knocking at your door. 

I know I’ve only been here for a week, but I’ve really enjoyed posting on here. It’s fun coming home from work or waking up to see the people that actually enjoy reading what I write (Even if it’s just one person that hits that like button on my post). It’s funny too when they’re the only blog I read for that day and explode their comment boxes. You guys have been great to me so far, and I will try to add more stories to my blog. Maybe some inspirational stories. Right now, I’m just playing my week day by day, and trying to figure out how to survive in this world. Keep up the nice work everyone, I’ll be reading more later on today. 🙂