Unfinished :(

This was the final song that we attempted to record before the band broke up. I started listening to the instrumentals today and I couldn’t help but think of all the meanings that were running through my head while writing this. Hope you enjoy!

A Chance

I used to play a lot of music when I was a teenager. It ranged from tuba, sousaphone, piano, bass guitar, guitar, and singing. I mean, I really enjoyed it. Loved it! Back then there were no worries. Just passing classes and the typical drama. I’ve been thinking a lot about different things that have been happening the last year or so since I stepped down, but I want to go even further back. I want to go as far back as when I started my first band.

The band was called Into the Primitive. Now, it wasn’t a very fancy name or anything crazy, but it was just three guys who loved music. The drummer and I played in the marching band,(he was in the drum line) The bassist happened to be his friend, but he didn’t play much unless we were all jamming together. The foundation of this band was just to hang out and try to create music. We didn’t play any gigs unless it was a small birthday party. It was actually pretty nice just to hang out and jam. Then, play some Elder Scrolls on the Xbox, or Halo. Plus, we’d have our daily ritual of dipping Chips Ahoy cookies into a jar full of Nutella. I discovered that combination playing in that band.

We had high hopes for our band. I mean, my mom spent almost $800 for us on a demo that sounded like glass scrapping against the inside of a plastic bucket. I have no clue why we went to this supposed audio engineer, but he acted professional on the internet. Ah! The days of myspace. Everyone use to advertise themselves there and pretend they were some high end business that could turn us into stars. Some people use their trickery to their advantage.

Anyways, the reason I titled this post A Chance is because all of us have goals in life. Whether it’s to be the next rock star, the next all star baseball player, the next professional football player, or the next big author. I wanted to start with saying that sometimes we all have to give each other guidance and a chance to learn our craft that we want to be great at.

I remember in many bands that I performed with, it seemed like every two to three months we were dumping members like we were in some short term relationship. In the band Into the Primitive we ended up kicking the bassist out because he was not performing as well as we wanted him to. We pretty much gave him three months to get it together, but he never rose up to our expectations. It was one of the hardest things to do as a kid. How can someone tell someone they aren’t good at their instrument, when you’re the one that can hardly read the music for a guitar. You only play by ear?

I didn’t think about it so much when I was younger because I was arrogant and cocky. I didn’t care about anyone else except for myself. I was a brat and I was spoiled. I can openly admit this because I know I was. My parents pretty much did anything that I wanted them to do, and eventually it crawled up and bit me in the butt.

Anyways, we found a new bassist that we thought would be a great asset to our band. He knew how to play bass. He was pretty well known at school and I kind of had a crush on his sister at the time. Our band seemed to be getting better, and we were happy with the new change we had done, but graduation came around, and I decided to take it upon myself and have my band play at my graduation party. The only problem was, my drummer’s brother’s birthday was that same day. IN my mind, I only cared about myself. I didn’t care about my drummer’s own personal events.

We ended up getting into an argument because he wanted to be with his brother and family. I told him he should have said something, but I already know why he didn’t say anything. I was a hard person to please. I didn’t take no for an answer, and I was selfish. As bad as I want to say something good about me during that time of my life, I can’t. In my mind was fame, glory, and wealth. Nothing else.

Well, we ended up dropping the drummer who was probably one of the closest friends I had ever had then. He went on to perform in a pretty successful metal and. I ended up performing in two different bands. The next band I performed with was Radiolarien. (We got our name by flipping through a dictionary) Anyways, we were a very pop and alternative band, but things fell apart just as quick as they had started. I ditched the bassist and drummer. I think for me I got tired of getting talked down to so I moved on. I went on to pull in a guitarist that I knew from thee high school Orchestra. We’re still best friends today. I was even the best man in his wedding.

We wrote and performed a lot of our own material. Our band went through a lot of different performers, but we always stuck together. We performed multiple gigs around Georgia and the Atlanta area. Things were going pretty well, but we could not keep a set band. We constantly kept kicking people our until we finally just decided to stop performing completely so we could start careers. We were called The Calling Card.

I realize now that I probably should have given many of the musicians we played with a chance to proven themselves. I was always so quick to jump the gun and kick them out. It was because I had a goal and I didn’t want anyone holding me back. The only problem is, you have to build each other up before you can be successful. I should have given a lot more chances to all those musicians in the past, but I was self absorbed into my own goals. I didn’t care about how anyone else felt. It was almost like  sickness or a plague. Now, that I think about it that was truly one of the downfalls of my band. I was not patient enough to let my members learn the music.

Give everyone a chance to learn and grow. Don’t think that they are going to be able to learn as quick as you. Patience is a virtue, and if you want to do great things, you have to start with the fundamentals. You have to bond with the people around you and help each other. You can’t just continuously move on to the next one that looks like gold in your eyes. You can be rich, but wealth comes from happiness and the ones that love you. Hold on to the people that follow you because they will teach you so much more than what society is trying to push into our brains. Even if you think you know it all, you can always learn something new from each other.

Notes and Creation

In my last post,  showed you guys my outlining process for my new novel “The Rise of Sargon.” Still a working title I should point out. People tend to wonder where a writer’s inspiration comes from to create words like Middle-Earth and the multiple exotic worlds in Star Wars. Everyone has their own unique way of creating and showing through words/film of these places. Here are my inspirations and what I do to create characters and my world of Eliptica.

1. Read, Watch, and Play

I find that reading books that relate to my story help me learn how to write my descriptions in the manner intended for the genre. It is hard to see a face that is not in front of me though or see images of places around the world that closely relate to locations in the book. What helps me though? I google photos of people, places, and clothes that give me an idea of the time and place my world is set in. Portraits of people definitely helps to envision my characters deeper with the skin textures, hair styles, and eye colors.

I will watch movies like Lord of the Rings, Star Wars, 300, Troy, etc. All of the movies I watch I am learning about morals and principles that each group believes. If I really like a moral, I’ll use it and twist it in my own way. Sometimes I’ll just watch these movies to have a basic idea of what an alien or human would look like long ago. I also enjoy watching these movies but research will always fall into my brain waiting to be cracked open later on.

I will play video games just because they are amazing and what better way to learn what your characters will feel when they win the battle, or I beat the game. There have been so many great ideas for story lines and battle sequences used in games that not many people get to experience. Plus, the feelings that rise when puzzles are solved and daunting journeys are taken to discover a new portion of a map. It all helps in my writing process. Some games I’ll play are The Elder Scrolls, Destiny, and Super Mario Brothers.

2. Music

Music has done wonders for my stories. Epic battle music with just brass and strings are my favorite pieces of music to listen to when I have to create a fight. Two Steps to Hell has most of my favorite pieces that I’ll listen to. I also listen to Five Finger Death Punch and Skillet if I need to pump up the action or just to get my creative juices flowing. I actually will pop in Avril Lavigne and Puddle of Mudd to put my mind in a place for heart break scenes. It all just depends on where I want my head at when I’m writing.

A few bands I love and enjoy, but avoid listening to while writing. Korn, Disturbed, Slip Knot, and any metal band that really distracts me. I avoid these bands because the fast paced singing/ intricate guitar leads make it hard to concentrate. I have written scenes where I lose my train of thought and start writing pieces of these guy’s lyrics cause I’m singing them in my head. Like I said I love them but they’re for another day.

3. Personal Experiences

I put a lot of my life experiences into my novels. I recently fell into a dark part of my life and struggled to find a way out. These times really help me discover a place that I want my main character to feel. I’ll have joy in my life as well that I’ll use too. Like meeting my fiance or traveling to beautiful places like Europe or the Bahamas. Many locations I’ll keep in my head so later I can write about the smells and the beauty that I had experienced.

I remember writing Horizon while I was intoxicated. My finance enjoyed it but it took me too long to finish because I kept having to back track to remember what I wrote. My suggestion is do not write while intoxicated. Just write notes and read them later.

I’ve laid out all of my inspirations and techniques to bring my mind to the world of Eliptica in this post. I hope this helps everyone look for new destinations to use as you crack away at your novel. I’d like to know what you guys do as well. So if you have any thing to add, questions, or want to know more about me, just throw it in the comments below. Thank you all for reading my posts and good luck with all of your writings.

The Impact of People

Guess who is finally awake?! Me! 

I had to close at work last night. It was pretty busy. A lot of people coming in to buy the last of the buy one, get one free mixed fruit. I will say, I don’t know if anyone except the people who actually have to cut this stuff up really know how much work is involved in making these bowls. Here’s the recipe: 1/4 of cantaloupe, 1/4 of watermelon, 1/4 of honeydew, 2 pineapple chunks, three red/ white seedless grapes, 2 strawberry slices. This is just for the small mixed fruit. Medium, large, and extra large bowls are double, triple, and quadruple those ingredients. So now that we have the ingredients, we have to forecast these suckers on a sheet of paper. We ended up having to cut almost 100-200 of these bowls a day, excluding the large and x-large. Those were only 8-10 bowls. It can be a rough job, but I think that cutting fruit is the most relaxing part of it. I usually enjoy doing this only because it’s relaxing to just chop away all day.

Anyways, last night I watched the result show to America’s Got Talent with Nadine and I’m extremely happy with a few of the results. They say that everyone has a talent, which in theory is true, but my talent, I would like to think is writing. I can play music too, but it has been so long since I’ve been on a stage or even picked up a guitar, I don’t know if I still have the skill set.


I miss those days. It feels like it was only yesterday I was choking on the smoke in the front row, while I was trying to sing. I also miss my lead guitarist who is currently in Korean. He has always been my best friend since we ran into each other in high school, became music buddies, and now, he will be my best man at my wedding( whenever that may be.) Luke is an awesome guy with a lot of talent, who is serving in the Army, and it’s an honor to know someone like him.


I’d like to say this is the cover of my book. It’s already out. You can find it on Amazon, Barnes and Noble, and Lulu.com’s websites. I haven’t talked much about it because I’m not wanting to use this blog as an advertising tool. I just know I’ve had a few people emailing me about this “Book” I have lingering in the digital world.

I know I don’t talk much about Nadine, but I have to say she is an amazing woman. She keeps my spirits up when I’m down. She supports me in whatever venture I want to take in my life. We’ve been together for four wonderful years, yes we have had those few fights, but we always pull out of it. There hasn’t been a day, where I couldn’t see myself not being with her. I remember meeting her in a pizza parlor when I was performing in a band. I didn’t want to go out that night because I was just going through some stupid crap in my head. My buddy Luke convinced me though. I headed out to the pizza place with my drummer, Garrett, at the time (We’ll get to him in another post.) I arrived there and saw Nadine sitting with her aunt and her cousin. (I knew her aunt and cousin so I was texting them throughout the whole night.)

Honestly, it’s tough to say exactly what was going through my head at that moment, I just knew that I wanted to know this girl. I wanted to be able to hold her hand, or at least have a nice conversation with her. I remember it took a while for me to get the courage to talk to her. I was a bit of a shy guy. I actually thought she was more into Garrett because they were talking a decent amount. I think I told her about that and she said “Um no, he is way too young.” Anyways, I performed that night, I met Nadine, and asked her out on a date. 

There’s many things that happen in life that you don’t understand why. Sometimes it could be the death of a family member, or simply running into a new best friend that has had a huge impact on your life. I’ve also come to realize that for some reason we live in a very small world, where everyone seems to connect on different levels. If I hadn’t of met Luke and Nadine, I don’t know where I would be at right now. 

I met Luke in high school, we created a band, he knew Nadine’s aunt and cousin, I met Nadine, and somehow this has been the longest lasting relationship I have ever had. Is there a higher being that pulls everyone together for a reason, or is our life written spontaneously as we live it? I don’t know which is true, but I like to think that my life is being written by me, not by someone else. I don’t want to shoot down anyone’s theories, but we make up our own future, our own dreams, and our own destiny. That is the beauty of being alive, the old and the new.